screaming
frustration
clawing
forgetting
sweating
unsure
misused & abused
loitering in ones’ own conscience
biting irony
sex is always on the table
when you’re making pretty sense
lay back down
calm
warmth
dread
dream deeply now
Recovery
Eroding from the ground up.
Quintessential
barbed wires intertwine around my ankle
I try to pull away and such but
fruitlessness is evident
It seems as though I am caught
in this frightening trap
Time is the only friend I have left
that will tell me when it ends
Only then relief will kiss my feet
only then rest and slumber deep
you are not better than anyone despite what your mother tells you.
and let them spite
hate me – all damned day & night
if that is what comforts their own self-loathing
maddening as it can be;
they can take their misplaced judgments
keep them sound, in lying, mirrored-lidded jars
I will fly free
comparable to a sunrise after the pillage
I will fly free
maybe only me, can love me
Gumdrops Cloak Rot
why must I be so unrelenting
in my pursuits
why must I break my body
to the point of pain
I live in a gumdrop world now
I don’t live in squalor or shame no longer
so why
why must I
brittle gum 