night is when i relax
when i think up all of the good thoughts
relentlessly, and unabashedly
it is at night
when i am able to be real
when i am able to use unsavory wording
when i am able to show a risque photo of me
only to
delete it all by morning
what is appropriate to write
on a blog
that you feel obliged
to write appropriately
such as
properly structured poetry and poise
I just want to say
that I am unbalanced
and that
I don’t feel like getting my hands dirty right now
with making art
so instead I make my mind dirty
writing the visceral moments from which tainted thoughts protrude rudely
why must I be so unrelenting
in my pursuits
why must I break my body
to the point of pain
I live in a gumdrop world now
I don’t live in squalor or shame no longer
so why
why must I
brittle gum 